I just ran the race that I've focused on since summer. I set high goals for this race and hard to try to achieve them. My biggest goal was top 5. I took 16th... I feel very discouraged. I wanted to post some quick times this year to possibly get looked at by some colleges but I haven't gone under 16:30 for the 3 mile and it's my junior year. My team is doing very well and we have state coming up. I feel like I'm not going to do well at state. Since the last race, I have felt very sluggish and everything seems harder. I have no motivation and no confidence. I almost want to quit because its been proven to me that no matter how hard I work, I will never be as good as I want to be. I feel like I'm letting my team down. We have big goals for next year and if I'm not a solid part of the team then those goals won't be achieved. I don't know what to do anymore. My teammates are younger than me and don't work as hard at running as I do yet they still run faster than me.