so recently I feel totally unmotivated to run and my runs feel hard, I am not slowing down though so that's a plus. But I am the top runner at my school and I put a lot of pressure on myself to succeed. Today on my run the guy I was running with was pushing the pace (he's the #2 guy) and it hurt but I kept with him and tried to act like it was nothing. I'm not sure if he was trying to prove a point or what but I used to train really hard and do little things right all the time. For example, I did core every day of the summer leading up to xc, ate right, and made sure I got sleep. Now I've gained 15 pounds and I feel awful even though my times say otherwise. I want to be the best but I don't want to work hard for it anymore and I don't know what's wrong with me. I never run more than 45 MPW so I'm not overtrained. How can I get the running mojo back?