I have run 6 marathons.
I bonked in the first one, hard. I came through halfway at 1:30 despite the fact that my goal time was only 3:10. I felt good so, like a moron, I sped up. Unsurprisingly, I began to walk/cry/jog somewhere around mile 20. I could barely walk for a week.
This experience led me to more mileage. I went from 40-50 mpw up to 70-80 mpw. The improvements were immediate. In my 5 marathons since then, I have managed to run even or negative splits. I have also been within 1:30 of my goal time in each race.
Here is the problem: I start to get scared around mile 21-22 and I will not speed up (even when I feel good). I worry that I am too tired and tell myself that the toughest parts of the race are yet to come. I think of my 3:21, shudder in fear, and stick to my goal pace.
5 times in a row now, I have felt like I could run another couple miles when I get to the finish line. I have comfortably gone for runs on the day after the races. I will admit that it beats the hell out of bonking and then limping around for a week, but it still feels like a disappointment.
**Assuming my above descriptions are true:
If I am still feeling good at mile 20 in my next race, should I just "go for it"? If so, reassurement from those who have been there and done that would be great.
Or have I been doing it right all along? My times are always in line with what my training has suggested.