Your worldview is seriously in need of some retuning. Success is progress, and i'm very happy with my progress. I went from running 18:37 to 16:30 soph year to junior year. Mediocre perhaps, but percentage wise, across the scope, it was alright. See, the thing is, people who are happily climbing the ladder are so enveloped in their climb, that they don't have inclination to write loutish messages on the side of the mountain to others. I pity the person who only looks at the top tenth of 1% and see's that as the only real profit to have.