It's all over wrote:
Drove 1200 miles in 21 hour window.
Drove from CNY to Indianapolis because I love a woman who lives there. She wouldn't talk to me (broke up/fighting/it's complicated) so I ended up sleeping in my car in some rest stop in the middle of no where just outside town.
Probably slept a good 90 minutes between midnight and 7 am. Woke up to a fully dead car battery, had to ask men coming to use the restroom if they could jump my car - that took an hour.
This was done in a compact car with no cruise, or ac and it was 93 out.
I had a really, really bad weekend . I think I lost her love. I drove there thinking I could fix everything somehow, but it all backfired and I looked like a fool. I'm devastated.
Other people make some good points in this thread. There have also been more vague threads relating to love blues on these forums for the past two years.
Love hurts regardless of your fortunes elsewhere.
A good way to help "time" do it's job is to get the ball rolling with people.
This is easier said than done and there are ineffective and unrealistic ways of going about that and effective ones.
For something realistic I would recommend a job where you are around a positive team of co-workers and you deal with customers frequently in a setting that is not toxic or all that demanding, aka retail cashiering. Old hurt feelings are still gonna be there but a little less so and you'll be more resilient.
What maybe you shouldn't do and wish you could do:
Whether or not you have money or think you can get it, and whether or not you have great social capital and dating chops or can hope to get it....
because you need something realistic to sustain you for the time being.
An uncertain breakthrough in the far future will not help your heartbreak so get out and do something even if it doesn't give you much money or mojo excitement/ego flattery (on the intense scale parallel to romance).
A job position or volunteer position that puts you in the center of action (but not too much action) and amidst reasonable people.
Then, after a while, you might organize your thoughts and your self-esteem and remember positive achievements from your past in a functional way for the future.
Love bites because when there are stakes in love and sex, whether it be the sex, the access and the exclusivity, the popularity games, the politics and affection and this and that, and material goods and services,
people are only so far away (i.e. very close) to being manipulated, screwed over royally, played, etc.
You may need two folds of action as a counterweight to what just occurred. A little bit of structure (what I just suggested) will provide the stabilization. Because it seems like you made a pilgrimmage that went awry and are in all-or-nothing flame out mode. So a bit of structure and safeguard is in order. But, you might also need a positive pilgrimmage to counterbalance and nourish your spirit. Don't go 100% on another pilgrimmage, just consider a part-time pilgrimmage. Up to you to figure out what that'll consist of, but it's got to be positive.
My two cents, take it or hate it.