sheets to the wind wrote:
I'm working on a second year of a pine-fest. No signs of it going away.
For a woman I'll never be with for reasons of marriage and geography.
It's not all bad - I get to think thoughts of new love while not actually betraying my marriage.
but certainly some unwise, dangerous thinking on my part.
advice?
No advice, just empathy. I fell deeply in love with a woman about four years ago, and she was in love with me as well (or so she said). Then it ended...abruptly and without discussion. One day she was professing her love for me and the very next day I got dumped...over the phone...out of nowhere. No explanation, no other guy (or girl), nothing. Just "I can't see you anymore."
I still see and speak to her occasionally because our kids go to school and play sports together, and she acts as though our 6-month relationship never occurred. It is horribly pathetic on my part, but I just can't get over her. At this point I don't know if I still have feelings for her, or if the lack of closure is just too difficult for me to overcome. It's ridiculous.
If I'm interpreting your situation correctly, you have it easy. It seems as though you fell for someone but never acted on it. Trust me; you could be much worse off.