Hey gang,
So I thought I was going to write up a full-length race report capturing in great detail all of the overbearing minutiae of how I toughed out my first sub-2:50 marathon last Sunday. And I could. Easily. I remember distinctly so many exact details along the way that I keep playing it over and over in my mind's eye. And it's an awesome video, even when things got rougher toward the end. But I have decided not to. I want to hold onto this one for myself for awhile. It was quite the feeling crossing the finish line that day, even if it was a few minutes slower than what I had originally wanted, and definitely a few minutes slower than what I feel I was capable of running with better conditions. So it goes.
Instead, you get the Reader's Digest version of the race: Because of the powerful winds, I decided, unconventionally, before the start of the race that I wasn't going to check any of my mile splits. I started my Garmin when I crossed the line, kept it on "Time," and just ran according to effort. The whole way. It was very liberating, and in many ways, probably kept the possibility of a bad blow-up out of the picture because I made sure to always feel in control. When I crossed 10 miles, and 13.1 miles, and 20 miles, I knew the math up to those points. When the hamstring cramps started around 21.5 miles, I knew to back off and keep a moderate pace and it was still going to be a big PR. And when I got to 23 miles and knew I had just over 5K to go and did the quick math, I knew breaking 2:50 might get close. But I never panicked, I always kept moving, I held the hamstring cramps at bay, and I closed the deal.
I recommend racing that way more often. I recommend focusing on the watch less often. And for the time being, I am going to run much more free. No set schedules, no scientifically-calculated workouts, no pressures of needing to perform. I am just going to run.
Which means I am stepping away from the forum indefinitely. Not because I don't care about you guys, but because I need the mental break from it all. I am not sure how much I have shared previously on this thread before, but I am a happily married 37 year old father of two girls, ages 10 and 6, one of whom has mild-to-moderate Autism. I have a full-time job that requires about 40-45 hours of my time every four days, followed by a three day break. While that is a great schedule for family time, it's not always great for dedicated running. Yeah, I can devote more time on my three days off to longer workouts and such, but it's tough to fit in that consistent everyday running (sometimes even doubles) during those four working days. And while I know I devote more time to my family than practically every other dad I know, I still always have that cloud of selfishness hanging over me when I am putting in the higher mileage.
So, much like the wind in Philly last weekend, I am not going to fight things anymore. I am going to relax and just let things happen with my life and with running for awhile. I may be back. I may even be back sooner rather than later. But I didn't want to take a break without giving a serious thank you to everyone who contributes to this thread. All of you have made me a much better runner than I ever thought I would be. Individually we are good, collectively we become great. I wish future greatness for all of you. When it happens, like it did for me last Sunday, you don't forget it. Ever.
Happy Running, and I hope everyone had a great week. :)