http://www.amazon.com/Vaporize-Your-Anxiety-Without-Therapy/dp/098253910Xthis works dude, just stick with it, and rotate the processes.
you express symptoms of being abused in early life, or what psych calls "adverse early life conditions" in the first 7 years of life -- your body was conditioned to be on alert, chronic "hyper-vigilence" for your safety, a survival mechanism.
First thing to do each morning, is go for a 20 minute walk, and think positive thoughts, think about your goal for the week, month, day, and chase any negative thoughts away.
use the techniques in that book. helped a friend of mine turn their life around.
i then took a girlfriend with similar issues, to his affordable seminars. guy is a genius.
the book is shorted than it looks, you can read it in 2-3 hours.
Good Luck. hang in there.