I've always been super self-entertained and interested in learning a LOT more than most people, but I still had a pretty normal childhood I think. However, sometime in jr. high I started feeling a bit more out of place with the rest of my peers, and this feeling progressed more and more through high school. I still had friends, some of which I greatly enjoyed and miss now ten years later as we all live in different states. I had some friends in college too, mainly my teammates, but we too live in different areas of the country now. I find that though I miss them, I never feel lonely or in need of friendship. I am more self-entertained than ever and am really enjoying my life, even though I am single, no kids, and no close friends or family nearby. I actually broke up with my girlfriend of 4 months because I felt like I enjoyed time to myself more than I did time with her, but we weren't really a very good fit. Beyond this, I've become more and more of an autodidact in that almost all my spare time that isn't spent running or hiking is spent reading or watching documentaries or TED talks and the like. It's pretty much what I live for, but I can't really figure out why as it's not anything practical. I just love learning and am interested in everything. I find I enjoy running and reading more than I enjoy spending time with (most) people... I'm aware this is pretty abnormal, but it's just the way I am. What makes things stranger still is I'm actually pretty good at socializing and being normal, getting people to like me and conversing with friends and strangers alike. But I don't really enjoy it most of the time.
On the Myers-Briggs personality typology, I'm an INTJ, the most reclusive of the 16 types, but I find I'm pretty loner-ish even by INTJ standards. I'm not a recluse as I get out a lot, but I just do pretty much everything solo and prefer it that way. Combined with my obsession with learning, I've been wondering if perhaps this isn't just a very mild form of asperger's or autism or something. I know the socializing didn't come natural to me like it does with a lot of people. The only reason I'm good at it now is because I made a point to improve my conversational and interpersonal skills.
Anyone the same? Is there such a thing as a socially capable asperger's type of condition?