Christian, What pisses me off, as a fellow post-collegiate runner trying to make a few bucks on the side, is the fact that by "admitting" and "apologizing", were suppose to somehow feel sorry, or empathize with your situation.
Likewise, as most dopers love to iterate how they felt compelled to come clean; NO, you just got caught ya cheating liar. Don't think for one second this guy was ashamed of what he did while doing it, he's ashamed in hindsight because he got caught. My tolerance for dopers is very limited, to the extent where only if a coach/organiztion is ENCOURAGING you to do so and you had no other choice; only then do I have the slighest sympathy. The rest of yea's, including you Hesch, you're unethical and greedy. Don't try to prance around and vindicate the idea through letters explaining how the EPO was ONLY for recovery purposes with no intent of using it to aid performance. It's insulting, and you along with the rest of the running scene know better.
At some point you have to become honest with yourself. Become part of the solution now, and join those who fight against cheaters like yourself. You owe it to yourself, your family, and more importantly, those whom you've stole money from. In addition, help clean up the sport and give USADA some insider info on who else is juicing.
Finally, I hope you learned and continue learning lessons through this, because although your definitely not the only one doing it, you were one of the more vocal and often jocular runners that gave the impression you were clean and hard working that gave runners like me faith that it WAS POSSIBLE, when in actuality, you were just a cheat.
Anbessa