YES! When I read that I went "What the f*** was that?" What female nuerotic runner decides to smoke a cig one day just to do it? Makes no god damn sense.
Smoking??! It may have just jumped the shark.
I agree. As a former member of a team frequently discussed on LetsRun for chronically injured, anorexic runners, one of teammates started smoking as well. She had been a very disciplined, elite high school runner that came to school with high expectations. At one meet, she ended up telling the coach he didn't know what he was doing. While many of us thought the same thing, we couldn't believe she had the guts to tell him. Like many of us, she should have just transferred.
I find "Cigarette Break" believable. Shove enough negativity into a person and they'll do some unexpected, unlike-themselves stuff. A friend of mine suffered from depression a few years back and he would do random-ass stuff like that.
Yes, it sounds like her dad was the problem, and the coach was just an extension of that.
The latest entry about her dads drunken attack on her weight and running was just heartbreaking. You really feel for everything she is going through and how even going home isn't the answer for her.
No one is perfect. He parents have problems of their own that could have come from their parents and so on. They probably don't even realize that what they say is hurtful. For example, my mom used to tell me I couldn't play sports because I was timid, uncoordinated and out of shape. Even said I was fat a few times. But that's how she saw herself. That's what she was brought up to believe about herself from her parents and therefore never succeeded in sports. So she saw herself in me and would say the same things, not really realizing she was doing it. I'd never call my mom a horrible person though. She is one of the nicest, most loving people I know and now realizes her mistakes and I've forgiven her for them. It's easy to find someone to blame, but it's not that simple.
I know it shouldn't but it really surprises me how some people can give birth to, love and raise such a good kid and turn around and treat them so badly.